ARTSTSTMENT

 Blog Post 3

Artist Statement

(There are fewer words left now and there is repetition.

Some repetition and some change, some repeats… (a new economy of meaning?)

Maybe in a year, you (your brain), reread some notes, or remembered something that they said about your work (you), in a critique.

And then you think about, well, everything.

Everything that's ever been said, or read (that I've heard, and resaid).

You repeat everything, so that, until it's clear, and clear completely, now and forever. We learn by repetition.

I say it out-loud about optimism and absence (since the potential in absence is real).

I’ve tried, and you can cover things in so much enamel to make permanent the object,

to show the potential which an absence has (the absence’s potential to be permanent).

The potential is there, and by preserving it you show it forever? (Was it upspeak?)

To talk about the thing (and stand in a circle, too, yeah, that’s good, that totally helps) and how “…this is all happening in the midst of a time that's fully challenging.”

“But what about the fact that the challenges give the plan a point?”

(Also its kind of maybe darker and meaner than before, I think you can tell because the title's colder.))

That’s how it goes, some of the times. Other of times, I think if I could just set some precedence, everyone will maybe be more inclined to let me slip from this grasp of darkness. Or whatever, whatever, because that’s how the team talks, says the same thing.

How alone I feel. It even makes my work feel alone, and it is in the studio, surrounded by people, but far away.

And the distance between (my different selves) makes the difference, and my friends can’t pull me by my hand, to pull me out, so they will just try to support and bolster my practice, with a hope, a huge hope, that I will get the safety I want in my work soon.

They know they can’t save me (wait, they can’t? I think they can). I don’t know if it can save everyone, but the work is taking me with them.

Because I need it, and they need it. We, you and I, we need it, and this world that work exists in needs it.  Even this world (not the small dark world, but the bigger social context), even with less room, has space for it, and that’s a really important space (to me).

I gave the assignment “What you want to make, think about it and make it now.”

“But, no one is ready to make it” (Fuck you, I’m ready all the time) I said,

“In 24 hours (or 48), this time tomorrow, it will either be about to happen, happening, or over (probably over).”